I am on a do not disturb mode...working through a sunday is disturbing enough!

I have not lost something in a long time...just my head

19 November 2008

I have had an eventful day, an array of emotions:

Assertive
Confident
Winsome
Blushing
Fire-fighting
Snappy
In your face
Humorous
Forgiving
Hospitable
Elusive
Thankful
Loving
Impolite
Honest
Efficient

...more to come....phew

Marketa Iglova & Glen Hansard - If You Want Me

The lyrics are very special...

Are you really here or am I dreaming
I can't tell dreams from truth
For it's been so long since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely and the distance causes only silence
I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

Are you really sure that you believe me
When others say I lie
I wonder if you could ever despise me
When you know I really tried
To be a better one to satisfy you for you�re everything to me
And I'll do what you ask me
If you let me be free

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

15, November 2008

one of the best things to happen at the onset of winters is to cuddle up with your lab after a hearty lunch and tuck yourself to sleep...i am going zen! what a perfect friend.( 1915)

imperfections in people and moments is what makes life soo bloody perfect
the first word
the first half smile
the first step
the first feed
the first word
the first song that one croaked to
the first dance step one learnt
the first paint brush in hand
the first verse one wrote
..picture perfect (1100)



There is no better way to deal with things but to smile and stay upbeat!(1100)

13 November 2008

had lost her way...but then aren't some of the greatest discoveries made that way...think Christopher Columbus, only he learned to live with it but I am not bargaining for anything different than what I had set out for...am finding my way back!

Watched rock on! yeah terribly late but was I delighted, i was ...savored every second..it is a mood uplifter and boy am I in love with the scenes and the songs even more! A beautiful portrayal of the young adulthood and our aspirations. Makes me smile and do all things one wishes to do..time just passes and changes us a little each day as we learn to live with what we should do ....perhaps which is why we should live our dreams each day.

12 November 2008

is having a deja vu of pulling back her hair, wearing specs, dawning comfort fits and ganji, sipping endless cups of coffee and making it a 36 hrs workday

8 & 9 November 2008

Needs to find a gym in gurgaon for the month of nov and dec..needs to do it again..hit the gym duhuh! (1700)

..got very nostalgic reading the ISB scrapbook.(1700 hrs)

is missing not being home for the weekend. Folks I love you.(1400 hrs)

is loving it!(1100 hrs)

watched the much recommended movie Deja Vu...hmm hollywood affected by bollywood...too many gaps but then Denzel's dazzling smile takes the cake. (11pp hrs)

Saw pics of family, they celebrated diwali in USA...time flies and they all grow up too soon..cant wait to see them this december.

had the house fixed...bring them on, the electrician, the plumber and me!(1000)

is in gurgaon for the weekend(0900 hrs)


Saturday 8th November, 2008


learnt the nuances of voice overs and what one really sounds like.. very interesting...also there is just a lot to know...dig on (2300)

had a friend play the keyboard and croon.. nice!(2100)

bought two pairs of shoes....a glittering golden Cinderella pair to flaunt in delhi weddings and the other a nude color, stylish and elite.

went bowling...jezz never done it before, is anyone watching...was not that bad afterall...in fact it was fun (1800 hrs)

had a really late lunch ...mouth watering shrimp pasta and not soo yummy beer ( but then what the heck one of those and it does the trick)(1700 hrs)

4 November 2008

at times you need to take a step back to move forward...hmmmm! (21.35)

sometimes equations seem to match but they are not balanced.(1.05 am)

Just another conversation

I have had one of the most splendid conversations with myself. It happened earlier this morning while driving from Noida to Gurgaon, a drive usually deemed to be a pain. At times, in fact, in my case, most of the times, a drive can be therapeutic, like the one today. It helped clear all the clutter in my head. The dark clouds seemed to fade. It all began with self affirmations. What are self affirmations? Why do we reiterate to ourselves things we would wish, materialize? I realized, that to my mind, re-affirming things to oneself, what one wants to believe in, what one would like to see happen, are futile. Want is intrinsic. Want is strong. Want is natural. One must evolve or grow into wanting something so much that all natural actions and reactions strive towards it. If that’s not happening perhaps you have not wanted it so bad. Perhaps one is looking in the wrong places. A wish must become a want to be a part of every breathing moment. When it does, one does not have to remind oneself of its importance or create an awareness of its existence. It is overwhelming enough to thrive on its own. Self affirmations address change to an extent. Once again I treat change to be external, evolution is not. Anything extrinsic is a force acting against nature. Perhaps we need to be comfortable in our own skin, the pace at which we live, unapologetic about how we think and feel and content with who we are and what we have. I by no means wish to dismiss aspirations, I never would, they after all fuel evolution. It is in fact a lot like the emotion, love. Love, a commonly used, most commonly abused word. Love is unconditional, it is not reiterated. It simply exists and grows. It knows no head, no heart because it values the soul. I have heard people mention how they once had a loved one. Had a loved one? I question. Love just stays; It is the demonstration that at best may fade away. Probably it was never love that they shared. It is the one thing that is permanent, the one thing you carry to your grave and who knows beyond. The only truth some say is death, but I could argue for one more, evidently. Not that I am trying to be condescending but it is an opinion that I bear at this moment, and who knows as I grow each day it may change.

3 November 2008

sometimes equations seem to match but they are not balanced.(1.05 am)

Hiatus

It has been a while since I wrote anything. Prima facie a good excuse will be the lifestyle we lead. It is easy to use hectic schedules as a reason for not following what one does otherwise. Otherwise? Well, yeah! There have been a couple times I thought I would pen down my thoughts and realized that I was unable to do justice. Defeating the purpose of finding respite in writings and using it as my truth serum. The hiatus has been cold and long, with loads untold. So I have decided to capture what I am thinking of and how i feel, in little capsules. To the world of internet savvy they term it micro-blogging. I am going to just call it updates on my status. An aggregate of all the moods I care to share on gtalk and facebook. Maybe they will help me know myself better, in retrospect. Need to get back to writing even if it means penning down a line and no matter how frivolous and inconsequential it be, it will at least keep me in touch. Wish more things were like swimming and cycling. Let’s explore!